Still around...

Usch... where to begin?

My pain is out of control, and the pain clinic doesn't know how to treat it as all conventional treatments have failed thus far.  However they are adamant that I do not speak directly with the Dr about alternative treatment options.  Which pisses me right the fuck off.  I understand taking a way a medication that isn't working, because it's not good to take pain meds if they don't help.  But you have to put something else in which they are NOT doing! I asked the nurse that I've been dealing with and asked him point blank.

"How are you going to treat me?"
"We don't know."

fucking hell... 

I've been working really hard at the treatment home, though everything is made much much more difficult due to pain issues.   On Tuesday I'm going to start DBT again, which is good but kind of scary.  Physical Therapy continues, as does using a walker.

Appartment hunting is getting more and more complected, and everywhere around me people are using the word "cancer".

oh well, at least my ears still fit.

Love,
Mango Kitty