I feel kind of crappy today. Partially because I Always feel crappy, but also because I'm starting to come to realize just how much of an ungrateful schmuck I am. I came from a very loving family, and though we weren't bathing in lobsters and accordions we always had food on our plate, shoes on our feet LOTS of music in our lives, and a big hug before and after bedtime. There are so many people out there that are desperation searching for family love, and here I am, a self confessed Daddy's girl, who also has 4 moms, 2 big sisters and 2 nieces and 1 nephew. PLUS having the love and acceptance of my Vikings' amazing family here in Sweden. I often feel guilty for having so much when others have so little. Even with my psychiatric and my physical issues, at least I can get my medication, I still have both my legs, at least I don't have to breath on a respirator, at least I can (most of the time) WALK. Sometimes you just have to look at things in perspective. As much emotional and physical pain I may go threw in my life, at least I have clean water, heat, food, and love in my life.
Love,
Mango Kitty
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Sunday, August 12, 2012
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Medical Mystery No More
As of last Friday I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. That's why I've been falling like I have. I have Epileptic activity on both the left and right side of my brain, though more in the left side than the right side. The neurologist did not say what lobes are being affected and I didn't think to ask. It IS treatable with medication, I've been on the meds for almost a week now and there's already a huge improvement. Next Wednesday I'm getting an MRI on my brain. Apparently some kinds of brain tumors can present themselves as Epilepsy, though my Neurologist does not believe this is the case she wants to be certain and rule out the possibility of a tumor, which I appreciate.
In one way, this is a good thing. It explains why I've been falling (psychosomatic my ASS) and it is treatable with 4 pills a day. No injections, no surgery, no having my legs amputated in a shady hospital in Russia (yes I still do have that nightmare!) Soon I will move back to the crutch from the walker, and eventually will function like a somewhat normal person.
On the other hand, HOLY FUCK I HAVE EPILEPSY. It's a scary diagnosis even though it's very treatable. Because it means that there is actually something wrong with my brain. And brains are kind of important (or so I've heard). It also means that I cannot drive, ride a bicycle, watch certain TV shows/movies, ride roller coasters, or have children. The last part isn't as big as many would assume considering that we are not planning to have children anyways but it's still... it's... well I don't really know what it is. It just sucks.
I keep going from being relieved to absolutely devastated, but I assume that's part of the process of accepting this new part of my life.
Love,
Mango Kitty
In one way, this is a good thing. It explains why I've been falling (psychosomatic my ASS) and it is treatable with 4 pills a day. No injections, no surgery, no having my legs amputated in a shady hospital in Russia (yes I still do have that nightmare!) Soon I will move back to the crutch from the walker, and eventually will function like a somewhat normal person.
On the other hand, HOLY FUCK I HAVE EPILEPSY. It's a scary diagnosis even though it's very treatable. Because it means that there is actually something wrong with my brain. And brains are kind of important (or so I've heard). It also means that I cannot drive, ride a bicycle, watch certain TV shows/movies, ride roller coasters, or have children. The last part isn't as big as many would assume considering that we are not planning to have children anyways but it's still... it's... well I don't really know what it is. It just sucks.
I keep going from being relieved to absolutely devastated, but I assume that's part of the process of accepting this new part of my life.
Love,
Mango Kitty
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
GOod NeWs
I don't have diabetes! In fact all of my blood work was in the normal range! Few... I am SO relieved, and I totally did a little dance when I found out. ^^
My thumb hurts though. I swear I have the worst veins ever. The lab took one look at my arms and said nope, they didn't even TRY to get blood out of me and had to call up the narcosis team (the people who put people to sleep for surgeries and stuff) and she ended up having to take it from my thumb!
In case you were wondering, getting blood drawn from your thumb sucks! I really would not recommend it. I would however, recommend that you take better care of your body so you don't have a scare like I've had!
Love,
Mango Kitty
My thumb hurts though. I swear I have the worst veins ever. The lab took one look at my arms and said nope, they didn't even TRY to get blood out of me and had to call up the narcosis team (the people who put people to sleep for surgeries and stuff) and she ended up having to take it from my thumb!
In case you were wondering, getting blood drawn from your thumb sucks! I really would not recommend it. I would however, recommend that you take better care of your body so you don't have a scare like I've had!
Love,
Mango Kitty
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