staying posotive

2 days till I see the neurologist about my EEG results and I am FREAKIN.  However I'm trying to do enriching things so I don't just cry on the sofa all the time.  Which I pretty much do anyways, but moving on...

My phone is dying so I have to send it in for repair, however when you send it in you have to send the receipt for it, which I could not find to save my life.  But today I gathered the courage to call them and ask them to send me a copy which they're doing and it will all work out fine.  few!

Obviously living on the third floor is not working anymore as I've already fallen down those fucking stairs once, and Monday I fell 12 TWELVE times.  Having the walker helps, but I can't have both hands on it at all times inside the apartment.  It's just not possible.  So I called the company we rent from and explained that I have a medical condition which makes me fall and the stairs are too dangerous, and we are now waiting for a ground floor apartment to become available.  She said as soon as something opens up she'll give me a call. few!

It feels like I'm finely getting this weight/stomach thing under control.  I've stopped eating meat and most dairy, in addition to the no gluten or lactose, paying attention to portion size, eating more often, and MOVING.  today I walked for an hour! ME!  AN HOUR!!!  But it's paying off, in the month of June I've lost 7 kilograms.  Un.freaking.believable.  I'm more than a little proud of myself I must say.  few!

And today I actually painted, for the first time in... well, forever it seems like.  I can tell that I'm out of practice and desperately need new paints, but it was fun, and I think it turned out rather well.  It's a gift for someone dear to me, so once said person receives it I'll post a picture. few!

Now I am TIRED and fully intend to spend the rest of my evening on the couch.  Hopefully not crying ;)

Love,
Mango Kitty

It's not all bad

 So I've figured out a way to style my hair that I think actually looks pretty cool.  Guess life's not all bad.  Mi-Go agrees.

 Now off to do laundry and clean a bit.  Very slowly.  And with a walker.  That's right folks, she falls so much she has a walker now.  Woo.

Love,
Mango Kitty

by request

Because it will make my mom laugh, here are pictures of my "interesting" hair.  Enjoy.

Love,
Mango Kitty

Hair Grows Back

oh man...
Hair grows back...
And it's better to cut your hair than to do more permanent damage to yourself....
but oh man...
Usually I can pull off cutting my own hair...  This time I did NOT.   But it's ok, it's just hair, it grows back, and my hair grows really fast.  So it's ok.

Good thing I own awesome hats...

Love,
Mango Kitty

Midsommer

Happy Midsommer to all my crazy Swedes, Hope you all enjoy the longest day of the year!
the cats are choosing to celebrate by sleeping in, shocking I know...
My Viking and I are staying home this year, and celebrating with moose and... well... not much else...  But it will still be nice to have each others company :)  I'm officially home for the 8 week summer vacation at the treatment home, I'll return to V-.town in August, but in the meanwhile I'm going to get as much Viking/Monster time in as I can. <3

Love,
Mango Kitty

Last week

This will be my last week at the treatment home before they close for summer vacation.  And I am SCARED.  Especially sense I've started falling again.  I'm afraid it will ruin everything.  That I won't be able to ride my bike to get groceries, that I won't be able to go for walks, That I''ll fall down the stairs AGAIN.  It's horrible to live in so much fear.

But I'm going to see a neurologist probably next week to get the result of my EEG.  And if he doesn't know what's going on I'm going to ask for a referral to a different hospital.  And if they don't know what's going on I'll ask for ANOTHER referral, and continue to do so until I get some answers and a treatment plan.  Because I refuse to accept that falling is a part of my life.  I refuse to live in fear of my own body.  I cannot be the ONLY person in Sweden who has these kinds of symptoms.  Even if it's psychosomatic there has to be treatment for it.  And I simply wont stop until I find it, because living this way is just too hard.  It's ruining everything. 

Wish me luck.
Love,
Mango Kitty

wow...

I really don't have a single positive thing to say today...