FAIL

  Apparently mind over matter is hippie bullshit that doesn't actually work. 

I've started falling again...

I cannot even beguine to describe how disappointed, angry, and frighted I am by this coming back.  I thought I had moved on from it.  I thought I had concurred it and would never have to deal with it again.  Apparently I was wrong.

The staff thinks it's because I've been doing too much, not getting enough sleep, and feeling the nicotine withdrawal.  They think if I take it easy it won't continue.  They keep telling me to continue to use my "I am strong and I CAN WALK" mantra, and to think positive...............................Right now that feels impossible

Why can't I just be healthy?

Love,
Mango Kitty